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2006-08-22T23:32:00.000-07:00

the feeling of missing someone is real bad....
when will this feeling go away...???
its so torturing....
*sobz*

2006-08-02T11:30:00.000-07:00

wow, its been quite a while since i blog...
times really flies...
courting back,
i have been working for 1 month plus le.
that's fast...

so far everything is going on smooth.
manage to get everything on hands.
n now i can do almost everything in the clinic,
which make mi feel useful n good,
n a sense of satisfation,
compared to which when i 1st started working.
really like a blur sotong,
everything dunno...
lol...

by the way if anyone is interested in doing lasik,
(correction of the short-sightedness),
do give mi a call.
i more than willing to fill u up with the detail.
^_^

2006-07-16T20:25:00.000-07:00

why does it always rain on mi...
my heart really aching...
wat u want from mi...
i really dunno...
please give mi some cue...
i"m in a loss...
total loss...
should i persist or should i give up...??
can u give mi an answer...

having someone who u love
but dun love u
occupying ur heart,
tat kind of feeling is so painful...
so torturing...
*sobz*

2006-07-04T21:04:00.000-07:00

hahahahaha.....
so happy today...
1stly,
i got my 1st pay today.
2ndly,
last fri was just toking abt unpaid OT.
n now i got paid OT le.
something to b happy abt ya.
yeah !!!!!!
lol...
^.^

today is also his 21st bday...
wanna wish him a
HAPPY HAPPY 21st BDAY !!!!
hope that he enjoyed himself this few days.
n wish that he stay happy every hr, every min, every sec.
miss ya...

2006-06-30T12:59:00.000-07:00

wat a tiring day today....
went home ard 9pm.
-.-
haiz...
if everyday like tat die man.
so late.
somemore no OT pay.
tat's the worst part.
hahaha...

my working hours is 9am-6pm lor.
yet have to work extra 3 more hrs.
not fair...!!!
really hope tat they can fixed our working hrs.

today mi like a lost sheep.
clinic was quite packed,
everyone was busy with this n tat.
mi not familiar with the work there
so couldnt help much.
felt so extra...
=<
haiz...
somemore my dear Alica who i'm attached to was on MC.

hope she's alright n will b back to work 2mr.
if not i'm going to b another day of lost sheep again.
lol...

2006-06-29T21:42:00.000-07:00

4th day of work @The Lasik Surgery Clinic.
this morning we had 2 surgery cases.
at the beginning they said
today i will just do the observation.
n Alica will b the scrub nurse.
so i followed Alica in to the theatre,
carrying the thought of:
"yeah!! no scrub, no stress"
so happy...

after finishing the 1st case,
the surgeon suddenly turn to mi n say:
"u scrub the next case."
i was so so so so shocked lor....
i looked at him with my eyes widely opened.
i still pointed at myself to double check with him.
n he said:
"yes, you..."

i was so nervous though not the 1st time assiting him.
but mi not mentally prepared,
coz Alica is the scrub nurse in-charge today.
no choice,
mi put on my gloves n everything to assist him for the 2nd surgery.
actually i dun mind scrubing up but
just tat this time round too suddenly le.
haha...

today everyone in the company got their flu jab.
so painful sia...
n Alica almost cry out.
she so funny lor.
haha...
we all cant help laughing out at her.
she really like a small little kid lor.
she a missy herself jab so many ppl
yet scare being jab.
hahaha...

our boss was not aroud during the jab,
so when he returned,
we our own staff have to jab for him,
n they all sabort mi lor.
ask mi go jab him.
"cold sweat" sia...
my hand was trembling.
when i was giving the jab,
every single staffs there were looking at mi lor,
pressure sia !!!!!!
boss lei !!!!!!!
haha...

went back early today coz
today is a morning clinic.
so afternoon quite free,
nothing much to do.
met up with jacq n her 2 frenx for dinner
@ Cine Long John Silver.
after dinner went home together with Mic.
we had a great chat along the way...
esp abt tat scary "someone"...
hahaha...

2006-06-27T23:59:00.000-07:00

2nd day of work...
tired...
coz most of the cases r scrub by mi.
n all the afternoon cases r by mi alone.
so scary lor.
after all i'm new there lor.
but lucky the surgeon was quite patience with mi.
so its still alright.

today was rather a busy day.
our boss knew we all busy till cant go for lunch
so he ask someone to packed back lunch for us, chicken rice.
so sweet...
haha
but my lunch break not sweet lor
onli 15 min...

after work,
met up with debi, xin lan they all for a singing session @ Cine.
its been a long time since i meet them.
we had a great time at K Box.
singing, taking photos etc...
lol.
enjoyed myself...

2006-06-26T23:04:00.000-07:00

today is my 1st day of work.
was quite worry,
while on the other hand quite excited too.
worry abt if the staff there
r friendly, easy-going etc...
n also abt the work,
if i able to handle.

was suppose to clock in @ 1000.
but i reached ard 0945.
early ya..
heex... ^.^
1st day ma,
must pretend pretend a bit.
lol...

today my job is onli just to observe.
so was quite relax.
observe how they scrub.
guess u guyz dun understand bah..
"scrub??"
haha..
onli we nurses know.
=p

at 1st i tot is like those hospital scrub,
so i still went to look for my clinical book for the steps to do a proper scrub.
end up its not put to use.
-.-
coz over at my workplace they just put on grown, cap, mask n sterile gloves onli.
dun even need to do the 7 steps handwashing.
just wash clean can le...
so easy...

during lunch break,
a colleague of mine brought mi to find yummy food.
after our lunch we still went for a short shopping @ Tangs.
tat's the advantage of working at town.
dun envy mi wor...
hahaha...

coz today not many cases
so we all went back 2 hrs earlier,
at 5pm.
so happy...
can leave early.
how i wish everyday is like tat.
heex...

in summary,
the staff there r friendly n easy-going.
the working environment is not bad.
hopefully everything goes well for mi.
^.^

looking forwards to 2mr...

2006-06-22T05:01:00.000-07:00

coudn't slp so here to blog...
just got home from Zouk.
went with 2 other frenx.
this is our 1st time n the last time...
coz its really too crowded.
nv know that Zouk is as crowded as MOS.
we were all like packed tuna.
ppl squeezing here n there.

ard 2.30am we left for supper,
bakuteh...
the bakuteh oyishi neh..
lol...
feel like having 2 bowls lor,
but nv coz too late le.
dun wanna put on too much weight.
haha...

while having our bakuteh,
they were there headaching abt
wat reason to give 2mr
if they cant wake up for work.
haha...
poor them...
lucky i start work in the afternoon.
so not a problem.
after that we all headed home.

just now dunno y suddenly miss him again.
cant believed that i actually called
n ask if he wanna eat bakuteh,
knowing that he surely having his supper.
haiz...

2006-06-19T23:24:00.000-07:00

Today was my graduation day...
It was a memorable day and
I guess it marks a new chapter of our life...
Its not the end rather a new beginning....

looking at everyone up the stage recieveing their cert
suddenly felt tat 3 yrs is rather a short period of time.
so fast...
3 yrs ago we know one another as stranger n now,
we seeing one another graduating.
n soon,
each n everyone of us will be busy
wif their own work n stuff.
wonder if we still will meet up like before.

today everyone looked so pretty and formal.
I feel very proud when I was reciting the Nurse's Pledge.
I really want to be the sort of person
that can uphold the nursing profession.

2006-06-17T23:30:00.000-07:00

yeah !!!!
a good news to share...
mi found a job le !!!!
so happy !!!!
=>
from 26th june 2006 onwards,
i"m a SRN, Theatre Nurse of
The Lasik Surgery Clinic,
located at Paragon.
so if u guyz happen to be shopping ard there
do drop by to say hi to mi ya.

2006-06-13T01:18:00.000-07:00

i dun know where i should go,
what should i do,
where should i go....

thoughts floating all around..
trying to grasp them..
but all i could
was to stare in blank space
thinking of too much things
till i know not of what i"m thinking.

just now my fren called mi
she sounded so depressed.
she heard some news of her ex,
n got overwhelmed by her feelings.
so i was there listening to her for almost 2hrs.
really felt so sorry for her.

not long after we hang up,
my other fren called mi.
so qiao,
she toking to mi abt her ex stuff too.
haiz...

out of a sudden,
i think of him...
once again tears filled my eyes.
just hope i"ll be fine 2mr...

2006-06-01T23:58:00.000-07:00

1st june 06- work @ Romankan

today Chan, Jacq, Jo, Alina
came down to my workplace to makan.
they were so bad lor,
laughing at my "milk maid uniform".
-_-"
n taking pic of mi while i work.
Ailna even worst...
take video !!!!!
win liao lor.
actually used to it le la,
all those who had come look for mi b4,
none of them walk away w/o laughing lor.
*sigh*

they waited for mi to finish work.
so touched neh...
haha...
so after my work we went PS to play arcade games.
we wanted to play longer de but
the shop is closing.
so no choice we had to leave.
after tat we all headed home.

i meet up with Mic & Jh
to go home together.
they were at Marina South having steamboat
coz Jh's bro going NS this sat.

talking abt Mic & Jh...
haiz...
they going Bangkok next week.
so sad no one to acc mi le.
guess i'll miss u 2 badly..
= (
over there le, dun forget abt ur
poor lonely cousin here lei..
remember to get her a big big present wor.
heex...

31st may 06- poly gathering

woke up quite early coz meeting my
poly frenz @ 1130am for lunch.
went suntec to have Rice Table.
tot most of them will turn up,
but end up onli 10 of us.
a bit disappointed.
well, nvm we still enjoyed ourselves.

after lunch we went Toy 'R' Us.
hahaha...
we all like small kids sia,
playing ard with the toys
like nobody business.
there this funny looking thing like hands.
then Richard said:
"can use it to replace our hands when
handling infectious patient."
lol...
like tat also can.
win liao lor...
then i saw this super tuber big bear.
kawaii !!!!!!
so cute !!!!!!!
feel like bringing it home sia...

after having enough fun,
Yelly, both Jacq, Alina, Jolyn & mi
went K Box for some singing session
while the rest went home.
this is the 1st time going K wit Yelly & Jacq Lam.
both of them have their very unique way of K-ing songs,
so cute n funny...
really boost up the atmophere.
n i nv know Yelly could sing chinese songs neh.
haha...

ard 5pm, Yelly & Jacq Lam went off.
left the 4 of us there contine K-ing till 7+pm.
tot Jo they all will b leaving straight after K,
so i called Ray down to acc mi,
since he live nearby.
but end up we gerz went shopping after K.
wanted to called Ray not to come down
scared he will b bored coz all gerz,
but he's on his way le.
so i ask him to join us.

we went for dinner n after tat
Jacq, Ray & mi
walk to Esplanade for a chat.
while chatting Jacq almost cry out
when she mention abt her ex.
i guess i can understand her
coz we are in the same situation...
but i really hope tat she can b strong.
forget abt him n move on...

2006-05-18T18:06:00.000-07:00

today is our anniversary..
just wanna tell him,
happy anniversary dear.
no matter where u r,
wat u doing,
i just wan u'll b happy.
miss n love u alwayz...

u will alwayz have a place in my heart..

2006-05-17T13:01:00.000-07:00

now somehow i think i starting to think thru le ba.
now the hole is not as dark as last time.
i think i"m seeing some flicking light le.
its there sometimes,
n not there sometimes...
its on n off.
but guess tt"s a good start ba.

last thursday is a pleasant day for mi.
i enjoyed myself tt day.
i suddenly had this relieved feeling.
i feel so light so comfortable.
like the big stone is being removed.
when i think of him n her,
i"m not so easily depressed le.
so sudden one..
rather funny.
but it feel so good.
real good...
it been a long time since i have this kind of feeling.
so carefree...

but it wasnt a permanment feeling.
just the next following day,
we meet up for a moive.
n all the feeling come back again.
miss him so badly...
i almost cry out when we part tt day.

recently i"m reading this book:
"Mars and Venus- Starting Over"
by John Gray, Ph.D.
i find below this para quite meaningful...

No one falls in love thinking,
"Let's get together n then,
after a few happy years' experience,
have a painful breakup."
When we fall in love,
we dun plan to lose that love.
In the beginning,
love always feels as if its forever,
but we can lose it.
When it happens, it break our hearts.

The end of an intimate realtionship
is a devastating loss
regardless of the conditions leading up to it.
How we grieve that loss
will determine the rest of lives.
Wheather a relationship ends by
death,
divorce,
or other circumstances,
we must take special care
to complete the grieving process.
Good endings make good beginnings.

just wanna tell *HIM*,
althought we r not together le,
but u will always have a place in my heart.
n no matter wat,
i"ll be always there for u..
u're irreplacable.
love u...

2006-04-12T16:51:00.000-07:00

its been 2 months plus since we go separated ways.
but i still think of him almost every nitex.
its such a torture.
thought that i"ll be strong,
but i"m wrong...
ppl said life still have to go on,
i understand.
but i just couldnt do it.
letting go is nv an easy thing.

recently i really really have lots of things in mind.
now my life is in a mess.
i dunno wat shld i do.
i'm in a loss...
my tears are using up soon.

somehow i feel that i'm trap in this dark hole.
trying very hard to search for that dim of light
that could led mi out,
but i failed.
i had already tried my best...
shld i give up??
pls can anyone tell mi wat to do...

i"m in great pain...
i"m so hurt....
i"m so disappointed...
pls anyone can u help mi...
**sobzz**

= Full of Sorrows Eve =

2006-02-22T22:53:00.000-08:00

thank everyone...
thank for all the support n advices.
its really helpful to mi.
i really appreciate it.
i"m so touched...

with all of you, i guess i can pull thru.
right now, i"m more stable le.
so need not worry for mi.
i"ll try to be strong n brave
like wat u guyz had said.
=)

i guess for the time being,
we both need a break to think thing thru.
actually singlehood also good wat,
can do wat attached cant do...
heex...

k lah, anyway i really wan to say a
BIG BIG thank you to
those who had helped mi thru.
esp suling, jolyn, chan, alina,
junming n ah shui.

*jo, thanks for the sweet lovely
pinky terry bear...
i love it...

2006-02-20T17:48:00.000-08:00

i dunno wat is happening...
y thing turn out to be like this...
i really dunno...
heart broken is all tat can describe my feeling now.
this feeling is terrible plus horrible...

i'm trying to let go,
but i just cant do it.
i dun wan to lose him.
i dun wan him to walk out of my life.
without him, i dun make sense.
life is so meaningless.
i really miss him...
miss him badly...
my heart is aching...
=' ( *Sobz*

ppl said time will heal the wound??
is it true??
i wonder...
i'm hurt deeply...
i really dunno wat to do beside crying...

i really miss u dear...
y must u torture mi like this...
y must u do this to mi...
=' ( *Sobz*

2006-02-01T13:20:00.000-08:00

so sorry to all those who care for mi..
i know this 1 n a plus week
i had let u guyz worry.
now i"m better le...
so dun need worry for mi.

thanks for all the care n concern.
i"m really glad to have u guyz
as my friends...
thanks...
dun forget i"m Eveline lei
no matter wat i"m be strong.

n specially to fish:
aa.. that time in library
u said i look better w/o make up.
remember..??
i just wan ask
when u see mi with make up??
i hardly put make up in sch lei..
hahahaxx...
did u remember wrong??

last but not least...
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!!

2006-01-11T07:47:00.000-08:00

17 WAYS TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE !!

Make this year your year !
Follow these simple steps everyday
will help u be your best self.

(1)Greet the day
--> when u 1st wake up,
say, "Hello, day. I m here"
give urself a chance to realize
that each day is a new beginning
-and has all kind of possibilities.

(2)Eat a healthy meal
--> try to eat at least 1 meal a day
thay"s filled wit life
-wit fruits and veg. ur body needs u
and counts on u to restore
and replenish ur energy.

(3) Tell the truth
--> it"s so easy to be dishonest
through embellishment and little lies.
practise being honest, esp wit urself.
u"ll feel more confidence when u
have nothing to hide.

to be continue....

2006-01-04T19:36:00.000-08:00

its been a long time since i blog.
hahaxx...
here i"m back again...

i"ll make this blog short n sweet.
coz too much to blog le,
if really wan
3 days 3 nites also cant finish.

1stly, wish u guyz a happy new year...
now 2005 had ended and 2006 had marched in
wat new year resolution u guyz have..??
for mi, simple:

1. lose weight
2. be prettier
3. more $$$
4. be smarter
5. be happier
6. more love from my ah dear??

2005-11-18T15:30:00.000-08:00

this morning i woke up at 7+ am.
early ya...
and had this sudden feeling of
cooking breakfast for my family.

so i went Fair Price at 8.15 am.
walking there happily,
then i realised it open at 9 am.
** sad **
so i went Mac to have tea.
sit there all alnoe drinking tea
waiting for Fair Price to open.
poor mi...
=<

around 8.55 am i went down
to Fair Price.
to my surprise,
there other ppl wating too.
mi not lonely after all.
hahax...

once it open everyone went in.
i brought the ingredients i wanted
paid and went home straight.
it was about 9.40 am by then.

so i proceed to my cooking.
i cooked:
-- sweet and sour pork
-- oyster sauce veg
-- seasme oil chicken
** yummy yummy **
heexx...

but u know wat,
while cooking my newspaper
caught fire...
scary sia...

my house got 2 stoves.
i was using 1,
my mum using the other one
to warm up her soup.
she on the fire so big tat
the newspaper i used to cover
my wok caught fire.
i was like..,
" ARGHH !!!! FIRE !! FIRE !! "
i shouted out...
hahahx...
recalling tat made mi laugh sia.
i shouted "fire fire" also no use.
right...

know wat i do... ???
hahaxx...
i faster take the newspaper
to the toilet and pour water on it.
lucky the fire was small small onli
so got put out easily.

so unlcky today...
while cooking also got myself
splashed by oil.
HAI...
=<
2 spots; on the middle finger
and somewhere near the thumb.
skin red red and pain sia.
** sobz **
so i put coglate on it.

i took almost 1+ hr to complete
my cooking.
the ved and pork was to my
expectation but the chicken
was not very good.

my dad said the sesame oil chicken
cant put water one.
but i made it watery type,
a wrong mistake...
but nvm,
at least i learn sth new.
cook sesame oil chicken
cant put water together and cook de.
hahax...

it was nice making breakfast
for my family.
=>
are u all jealous ???
wahahahaha...
=P

2005-11-07T02:20:00.000-08:00

should be in dreamland by now
but i cant slp...
my mind is still working
it dun allow mi to slp.

i"m feeling so down now...
no mood to do anything.
just had a cry...

y am i so weak...???
y am i so emotional...???
y i cry so easily...???
i dun wan it to be tat way
but i cant help it.
i"ve tried but failed...

do u believe tat just by
flapping thur photo album
reading thur old letter and cards
can make ppl cry.
so funny rite.

just now i was flapping thru an album
looking at those photo of mi and my dear
past memories flashed back.
pic of how we met,
how we get to know each other
from friends to lover,
the time we had together,
our joy and unhappiness,
our promises,
etc etc...
all in once occppied my whole mind.
and had this sudden feeling
of missing him badly,
but he not by my side...

my dear he dun like to write.
but yet he wrote mi a letter.
but it was like 2 yrs ago.
i was so happy when i recieved it.
really happy...
further more it was a long one wor.
he said to mi,
even during sch composition
he also nv write so long before.
can see tat he really
put in effort to write.

last year Valetine
he gave mi a card.
the card was filled wit his handwriting
and a very nice and sweet pic drew by him.
a ger n a boi holding hands,
they seemed very happy and xin fu.
they"re like living in a world of their own.
a world tat is full of happiness.
and he wrote there:
"TOGETHER FOREVER"
thought the pic is like a kitergarden work
but i simply love it.

after looking thru all these,
tears kept rolling down.
haizz...
wat a bad habit i have.

2005-10-31T22:55:00.000-08:00

EXAM OVER !!!!!

I"m been waiting for this day to come.
and finally its here...
feel so relax now..
=)

but now another problem...
how should i spend my holiday neh ??
headaches sia...
should i work....
or should i just relax myself...??
hmmm....
if work, no time to play.
but if play, no income...
how sia...
haiz...
somemore X"mas coming.

well...,
anyway i"m sure tat i will
spend my holiday wisely.
coz next year passing out le.
scare working life no time for mi to play.
heexx...

2005-10-25T20:59:00.000-07:00

A water bearer in India served
his master by toting water from
the steam to his master"s home.
he carried the water in 2 pots
tat hung on eihter end of a pole
balanced across his shoulders.

one of the pots had a crack in it;
the other pot was perfect.
the perfect pot always delivered a
full potion of water from the steam,
while the cracked pot always
arrived at the master"s house
only half full.

for the full 2 years this went on.
everyday, the water bearer
delivered one full and one
half-full measures of water to
the master"s home. naturally
the full pot was proud of its
service, perfect to the end for
which it had been made.
but the cracked pot was unhappy.
it was ashamed of its imperfection
and miserable tat it was unable
to accomplish only half of wat
it had been made to do.

after an eternity of wat it
perceived to be bitter failure,
the cracked pot spoke to the
water bearer one day.
"Im so ashamed of myself !
i wan to apologise to u".

"but why?" asked the water bearer.

"for the past 2 years, this crack
in my side has let water leak out
all the way to the master"s house,
and i have been unable to deliver
but half my load," said the pot.
"you do the work carrying mi from
the steam to our master"s house
each day, but bcoz of my defect,
you dun get full value from ur effort,"
sighed the anguished pot.

kindly, the water bearer told
the distressed pot, "as we return
to the master"s house today,
please the lovely flowers
along the way."

as the trio went up the hill,
the cracked pot noticed the
winsome flowers- the sun
glistering off their bright faces,
the breeze bending their heads.
but still, at the end of the trail,
the faulty pot felt bad bcoz
it had again leaked out half its load,
and again it apologised to the
water bearer for its failure.

but the bearer said to the pot,
"did u not notice tat the
flowers were onli on ur side
of the path ? bcoz i have
always known abt ur flaw,
i planted flower seeds on ur side
of the path, and everyday
while we wind our way back
from the steam, u have watered them.
and i am able to pick those beautiful
flowers to adorn our master"s table.
were u not just the way u are,
the master would not have
this beauty to his house."

my dear frenz...,
did u all get the msg ??

everyone has imperfections,
some more obvious, others less.
the keys to life is to find
perfection within these imperfections.

do not linger on ur own failures.
instead, find the inner potential
in each of u and make full use
of this potential.
do not be discouraged when
someone does better than u.
believe tat you are better in ur
own different ways and be proud
of those ways.

2005-10-19T23:56:00.000-07:00

this morning there surpose
be 2 lectures at 10 and 11 am.
but i couldn"t wake up
hence didn"t went
for both lectures.
=X
heeexx...

there a consolidation
of HS 3055 at 3 pm.
Alina said must go early
to book seat
as this consolidation
is for the whole of yr3 students.
so we decided to go at 2.40 pm.

but suddenly we recieved
a call from our friends
at 2.10 pm
saying the lecture hall
is packed le.
we were like,
"huh !!! so fast ?!?!
now wat time onli.
y they so kui sui."

so we faster rushed down too.
and this is the 1st
i see the lecture hall full.
or should i said overloaded.
hahahaxx....
like wat big superstar
coming like tat.
packed till wan wallked
also very hard.
lucky we got seats
if not have to sit on the floor.

we got some tips on
wat we should look out for
when studying for exam.

talking abt exam...,
its just next week !!!
most of my friends had
started their revsion le,
yet mi here still playing a fool !!
i havent even got
my notes ready !!
haiz...
(-_-)"
i think i better buck up.

after the consolidation lecture,
we went for a pizza feast
at our sch Mac
by our clinical lecturer,
Miss CLY...
so nice of her.

we ordered Canadian pizza.
yummy yummy...
the pizza came at ard 6 pm.
we have some muslin friends
who are fasting,
hence we waited for them to
break their fast at 6.53 pm
then we eat together.
so while waiting
we played the game
"Murderer".
so fun n funny...

as the murderer
u have to wink at others, rite.
hui fen was the murderer,
i think she not used
to the game yet,
as this is her 1st time playing.
she wink till so obvious tat
we all know she is the murderer lor.
so funny...

then got once she is
not the police,
but she catch the murderer.
we all were like dunno
wan to laugh or scold her.
hahahxx...
and some of us got a few
"wrongful death"
coz we thought tat person
is the murderer
but nope.

when come to the last round
we decided to have some punishment.
there is some leftover coke,
chesse and chilli powder.
then Miss CLY said mix all.
and we did...

the "coke" looked so sick lor.
and had a "great" smell.
in the end hui fen n syasya lose.
at 1st they refused to drink.
coz it was 1 full cup.
but we spare them la.
each 1 sip can le.

we this class hardly
had this kind of bonding.
we does have gathering
like bbq together,
but mostly we onli stick
to our usual peer group.
but this time round
we played together
have interaction wit one another.

i think tat is wat we need
more of...
this kind of class bonding,
correct ???
heeexx...
hope we have more
of this kind of activites together.

2005-10-13T20:12:00.000-07:00

ytd really had a great time.
enjoyed myself very very the much.
thanks to u guyz
who help mi celebrate
my bday...

lan, jasper,
meifen, jia hao.
jasper, jun hao,
brian n
esp my deardear.
so elated u all came...

meet lan they all
at city hall mrt station at 6
but onli mi lan jas n jun hao
were on time.
the rest was late !!!
they reached ard 7+ pm.
i understand lah,
they got things on mah
then dear got sch
so cant blame.

actually was thinking of going
sizzler to eat
but in the end
we went Siam Kitchen
coz sizzler dun have wat we wan,
buffet.
heexx...

then dear came,
wit a big boutique of flower !!!
the biggest boutique
i ever recieved in my life.
31 roses...
was quite heavy sia.
and the flower was lovely.
it was my fav colour,
pink.
but the pink was of diff
degree of pink.
from light pink to dark pink
and a few purple too.
* happy happy *
= )

food at Siam Kitchen
was not bad.
spicy spicy one.
esp the tom yum soup.
spicy till i drink
a few mouth onli.
really cant tahan,
too spicy le.
when u swallow
u can feel the hotness
down ur throat sia
then to ur stomach.

when we were about
to finish our dinner.
suddenly a waiter
came to mi wit a cake.
and happi bday song
filled the whole resturant.
i have no time to react lor.
nvm,
i was too surprised n shocked
to have any reaction also.
hahahaxx...
so pai sai...
the whole resturant ppl
sing together.
so touched...
:' )

it was a Oreo cheesecake.
brought by jas they all
when i was away...
* thx guyz.
the cake was nice but
all of us were too full
to enjoy it.

there were some food left
so we played "zhong ji mi ma"
loser have to finish it.
mi so suai,
1st round lose le.

after tat ard 10+ pm
we went k box.
so sad jas n brian cant stay.
then jia hao send meifen home,
b4 coming back to join us.
law n jun hong came too.

we sing n sing till
the k box ppl came to
"chase" us out.
hahaxx...
coz they are closing le (3 am).
we havent sing enough yet lor
but no choice...

after tat we took cab hm.

* Happy 19th Birthday *
(12.10.2005)

* cutting up the oreo cheesecake *

* wander wat he looking at ?? *

* Smilez *

* flower by dear *

2005-10-12T08:49:00.000-07:00

hurray !!!!
finally here come
my bday !!!!!
=>

bday song for myself:
"happi bday to mi...
happi bday to mi...
happi bady to eve...
happi bday to mi..."

2005-10-10T20:56:00.000-07:00

recently mi under stress
coz of sch projects.
( hardly hear mi stress hor)
( hahazzz)
but jolyn seemed
more stressed than mi...
or maybe i should said
she is alwayz so so
stressful than mi.
hahazz...
ture ya. ???
so jus nw after sch
i treat her ice-cream.
* yummy *

honestly,
i one of the "shui bian" type
("anything" type)
hence stress dun come
to mi easily.

mi take things easy,
esp studies.
=X
heeexx...
but when to study
and when to play
i"m very clear lah.

u all may see like
i alwayz dun come for lesson
or sleeping in lecture all.
but when come to exam
i really study one k.
or project work
i will do one leh.
heeexx...

actually mah...,
we human come to
this world not to suffer
but to enjoy n live our life.
so u all out there
dun alwayz stress urself up.
sometime u must
take things easily,
depending on suitution la.
esp ALINA.
(alina u heard tt)

in sch i like alwayz see u
stressing on unesssary thing.
if u carry on stressing
i think ur white hairs
is getting more n more le.
n will look older wor...
hahahzzz...
scary hor...
so u better stop stressing !!!

haizz...
mi said ppl stress here n there.
mi stressing too.
stressing wat bday gift
i wan.
heexxx....

conutdown to my bday....
2 days more leh....
YEAH !!!!!
u guyz know wat to do le hor.
heeexxx....
; )

2005-10-07T21:17:00.000-07:00

recently told dear
he very long nv
buy mi gift or
give mi a surprise le.

then last night
he said wan come
fetch mi to his house.
i said ok.

waited for him
at my house opp kopitiam.
coz having supper wit my friends.

suddenly someone hugged
mi from the back.
"xia shi wo le"
scare mi sia.
i jumped lor...
got a shock mah...
hahazz...

turn around
i saw him behind mi
wit a boutique of flower.
so surprised sia...
so happy too...
hahahzzzz....
he so cute !!!!!
its been a long time
since he give mi a surprise le.

then when i got back
i noticed smth,
my flower got caterpillar !!!!
still alive one leh.

i asked dear
if we should get it out
u know wat he replied...
"u steal ppl house le,
still wan it to be homeless arh"
i was like -_-"
i said ok ok
i shall not touch it.
hahahazz...
nv know he so kind
to caterpillar one.
so i jus left it there la.

the next morning
i woke up n saw it not there le.
so worry where have it gone to.

then in the afternoon,
i saw it in my flower again.
it was hiding deep in,
no wonder morning nv see it lah.

i see it so cute so decided
to keep it as pet.
but dear remind mi tt
it belong to the soil leaves all
not in the small container
ask mi free it.
so i did.
coz actually wat he said
also very ture lor.
if i"m the caterpillar
i wouldn"t be happy too.

To dear:
thx for the surprise n flower.
= >
** love you alwayz **
MuAcHzZz

2005-10-02T01:51:00.000-07:00

haizz...
have my hair permed last wed
(28.09.2005)
a wrong thing to do..
regreted...
=<
dun really like.

actually wanted to do rebonding.
still went searching for
the hairstyle i wan,
had it cut out
so tt i can show it to
the hairdresser to cut for mi.
but the hairdresser
said permed would be better.
coz he said my hair too layed.

i had a long time considerating
abt his idea of perming
b4 coming up wit my decision.
meanwhile,
i also feel like changing my look
so i listened to him
but regreted...
sobzzz !!!!!!!

i look so mature !!!!!!
i hate the hairstyle laaaa !!!!!
ARGGHHHH !!!!!!!
I HATE IT !!!!!!!

still perfer straight hair.
think will get my hair straighten
end of this year.
really cant stand it le.

1stly, hard to manage.
2ndly, so messy.
3rdly, SO MATURE !!!!!!!
look so old lor...
it simply driving mi crazy...
='(

2005-09-27T13:39:00.000-07:00

last nitez had an outing
with my colleagues.
went AMK for a feast.
yummy...
the food there were excellent.
esp the crabs.
love the crispy tofu
and kang kong too.

after eating we
took cab down to
cine k box to
show off our singing talent.

1st time going k box
wit middle age ppl.
(not trying to say they r old k)
a diff feeling...
coz they all sing old songs.
but there were 3
around my ages one
so not so bad...

wow...
"ren bu ke mo xiang"
nv know tt they all
sing so well sia.
esp li yun auntie
and ah shui.

li yun auntie her voice is
really powerful.
caught all our attention.
she sound jus like
the original singer
or even better...
no shit...
dun play play wit
her high pitch voice.

they open 2 bottle of chivas.
and some got drunk.
then those not drunk
have to take care of
those who are.

judy auntie she changelled
ah shui to drink.
at 1st,
ah shui pour 1 glass
said half half
but dunno y end up
ah shui down 1 glass
judy auntie 1/2 glass.
after finishing the 1/2 glass
there goes judy auntie.
slpin on the sofa le...
so funny...

sindy drunk too.
see her so innocent all
nv except she"ll drink so much.
auntie alice and ah shui
both got high onli.
wonder how they going
to work the next day sia.
sure hangover one lor...

sindy,
judy auntie,
alice auntie,
and ah shui...
all live at tampines.
and all got themselves
either high or drunk.
so worry for them.
coz the rest live at north side.
go diff way.
ah shui even worse still ride.
but he say he alright.

sindy and auntie judy
both not stable,
cant walk properly
and were vomiting.
so we went to the counter
to take some plastic bags.
i think the staff saw
they were vomiting,
so he took some tissue
and a few more plastic bags for us.
after a while he brough in
one roll of toilet paper.
so nice of them.

we stay at the k box
till ard 2+ 3 am
then took a cab hm.

*today auntie irene going japan.
so wish her and her husband:
"yi ru shu feng"
guess by this time she in japan le.

2005-09-22T00:22:00.000-07:00

QUIDAM !!!!
Cirque du Soleil
it was a super tuper excellent show.

they were fliping...
tossing...
jumping...
flying...
all sort of incredible stunts
tt u will see till ur eyes pop out.
really amusing.

nv regret buying the ticket.
=>

2005-09-19T15:57:00.000-07:00

today is Mid-Autumn Festival.
and is mi n my dear special day.
and heard is the chinese qing ren jie too.
wow...
18.09.2005 is really
a mutiple day for mi.

today we are together for
2 1/2 years le.
said long not very long.
said short also not very short.
but wat most importantly is tt
we both enjoyed each other company
n treasure each other.

to come to this stage is not easy.
coz there is lots of up n down.
but lucky we managed to over come all.
from this relationship wat i learnt is tt
there must be a trust between
u n ur other half.
when there is trust,
things are easy.

today we went to watch F1 speedboat.
at marina bay ard 1.30 pm.
haizz..
thought will be exciting
but turn out to be a disappointment.
felt being conned too.
nothing much to see there.
waste my time n money...
some more 15 bucks lei.
like tt fly away...
* sign *
n got my slipper n foot full of mud
coz rainning.

it was too boring
tt we went off ard 5 pm for dinner
n to catch a movie at Marina Square.
"THE BROTHER GRIMM"
not said very nice not said very bad.
ok ok onli.

after the show we went back to
play lantern n sparkers.
we carry the lantern n walk ard.
while walking we tried to burn
each other lantern
see who's one got burnt 1st.
n i'm the winner.
YEAH !!!!
hahahazzz...

we were like small kids sia.
still went to the
playground and play.
really play our heart out.

the playground got one
funny spinning thing.
dunno wat it called.
sit on it then u spin n spin till u dizzy.
we take turn to play.
we spin each other till cant tahan
then ask the person try to walk
straight w/o falling.
fun sia...

To deardear:
* dear, i enjoyed myself ytd.
felt very xin fu.
coz tt"s wat i always wanted.
walking down the street
hand holding hand
wit onli u and mi.
!! MuAcHzZ !!
LOVE YOU ALWAYZ...

For wat u have done
i really appreciate it.
thankz for showering mi
wit ur love, care n concern
all this while.
i"m really grateful tt
i have know u.
thru u,
my life is never this colourful...*

2005-09-17T10:12:00.000-07:00

last night went to club MoMo.
wit my cousin Mic,
her bf jh,
n jh"s ns friends.
total 10+ of us.

on fri and sat free enterance b4 10,
hence we reach there ard 9+ pm.
lots of ppl le by tt time.

1st time down to the dance floor.
dun really know how to dance
but enjoyed myself to the optimal.
it was really so fun sia.
hahahazz...

in between some of them left.
around 3+ am
those who stay back
we went out to eat.
1 of jh friends drive.
but u all know la,
a car the most can squeeze 6-7
plus the driver n the front seater.

but tt day we 9 of us
tried all our mean n way to squeeze
into tt car.
those at the back were really like
packed until cannot packed sandine.
no no...
i think worse than packed snadine sia.
hahahahzz...
i was so worried tt the car cant take it.

we reached a place called river valley.
they ate prata while
mi n Mic had chicken rice.
the chicken rice was nice.
after tt we went home n slp...

ZzZzZzZzzzZzZzZz......

really enjoyed myself
but dear was not very happy...

*dear, i know u worry.
but trust mi i know how to
care care of myself de, k.*

2005-09-11T23:36:00.000-07:00

so suai today !!!
while i was walking to somerset mrt station
after work,
got one guy came up to mi and
claimed tt i know him.

he said he was who and who.
but i really have no idea who he is.
then he still followed mi a distance.
so scary...
but in the end he walked away
coz i ignored him.

while reaching the station,
even suai !!!!!
the stupid bird poo poo
on my hair !!!!!!!!!!!
ARGGHHHH !!!!!
sickening birds !!!!!!!!

dun know if anyone noticed.
so ps lor if there is.
haizz... (-_-) !!!

= *sickening suai night for mi* =

MUST READ !!!! IT CONCERN ABT U & MI

2005-09-05T00:50:00.000-07:00

MUST READ !!!! IT CONCERN ABT U & MI

A group of working adults got together to visit
their University lecturer.
The Lecturer was happy to see them.
Conversationsoon turned into complaints
about stress in work and life.

The Lecturer just smiled and
went to the kitchen to
get an assortment of
cups - some porcelain, some in plastic, some in
glass, some plain looking
and some looked rather expensive and exquisite.

The Lecturer offered his former students the cups to
get drinks for themselves.
When all the students had a cup in hand with water,
the Lecturer spoke:
"If you noticed, all the nice looking, expensive cups
were taken up, leaving
behind the plain and cheap ones.

While it is normal
that you only want the best for yourselves,
that is the source of your problems and stress.
What all you wanted was water, not the cup,
but we unconsciously went for the better cups."

"Just like in life, if Life is Water, then the jobs,
money and position in
society are the cups.
They are just tools to
hold/maintain Life, but the
quality of Life doesn't change."

"If we only concentrate on the cup,
we won't have
time to enjoy/taste the water in it.

2005-08-25T11:54:00.000-07:00

yesterday went to
orchard seoul garden
wit my class.
so fun sia...

we took a train down together
after school which end at 12pm.
we had made our resevation
the day before
coz we are going in big group.

we eat and talk and laugh
thoughout.
we cooked food for each other.
we took a lots lots of photos.
we really enjoyed ourselves.

we reach there at 1 pm
and left at 3+ pm.

after tt some of us
went home.
some of us go shopping around.

i was one of them who went shopping.
i went wit chan,
hui fen,
lindra, and
lina.

we had a great time shopping
at far east plaza.
coz none of us went home
empty handed.
hee...

i brought quite a lots of things.
got:
bag...
hello kitty earings...
1 polo T...
1 top clothing...
belt...
a very cute candy box...

actually wanted to buy shoes also
but dun have my size.
so sad...
tt shoes i wanted for very long le.

then at the conveser shop
i saw this red jacket
super super nice.
the 1st sight i fall in love wit it le.
hahazz...
i really really like it very much.
but a bit expensive
plus i spent quite a lot tt day le
so i didnt buy.
haizz...

nvm...,
it will be mine one day.
i"m going to get it sooner or later.
hahahahahazzzz....

2005-08-23T12:45:00.000-07:00

this few days looking
for friends
who is interested in going
downtown east
to have fun the whole day.

but eventually..,
still looking.
coz they either got
school,
attachment,
or,
work.
haizzz....
so so so sad...
=<

next week is my holiday le
so wan to enjoy myself.

then last last week
i saw this leaflet in my mail box
saying,
there a 4 person combo package
at downtown east at $69.
so happy sia..

package included:
- 4 tickets to wild wild wet
-4 tickets to escape theme park
- 2D\1N stay at the chalet

so last week i went around
asking ppl who wan to go
but mostly cant.

my plan is:
in the morning go
wild wild wet and play
till 5-6 pm.
after that go escape till it close.
then at night maybe
we go out eat
then back to chalet for
a chat or wat.

but but but but....
today one of my classmate
told mi tt wed escape nv open.
i was like -_-!!
why !!!???
i plan so nicely le
then something must happened.
*sign*

now i think i not booking
the package le.
maybe i"ll just go
the wild wild wet.

so far tt"s the plan
for the time being la.
haizz...
ruin my planning...

2005-08-18T12:42:00.000-07:00

Mmm...
so long nv come blog le.
now mi in school com lab
with Jolyn and Jenny.
they both surfing their own net.
since i got nothing to do
so here i come...

hahazz...
for the pass 2 days,
i"m catching the show
"Stairway to heaven"
its dammn touching lor.
make mi use up most of
my house tissue.
now have to go buy new
tissue coz finish le.
hahazz...

this show is recommand
by my friend,
Jolyn.
2 months ago,
she intro mi this show.
she lend mi the vcds.
she told mi is very touching
but i lazy go see
though i love touching story.
coz the way she tell mi
i somehow feel tt the story
is ok ok only.
not really convince by her.
hahazz...
so the poor Vcds is slping
in my dark dark cardboard
for 2 months.

but on tuesday
something happened
and change its (Vcds) fate...

tuesday night around 10+ pm
i was bored
so i went to on my TV.
i change channel to channel.
then suddenly i saw
this koren show at channel U.
i see a while and find tt
its quite nice.

the show end at 11 pm.
after tt i look out for the title.
somehow i feel tt
its very familiar.
suddenly i rem Jolyn"s Vcds.
so i took it out and see...
and bingo...,
its the show i watch at channel U.
i was so happy.
so i contiue watching.
tt day i watch till 5 am
in the morning...
hahahazzz...

u all must be thinking
i"m crazy
but i"m not !!!
its all the show fault lor.
so touching till
i cant stop watching.
just like the Pringles,
"Once u pop, u cant stop"
hahahazz...

the next night wed
i watch again.
but this time
not so crazy till 5 am la
coz got 8 am the following day.
i watch till 12+ 1 am only.
then go sleep le.
so far i watch 10 volums le.
total got 20.
i think tonight not exceptional.
very eger to know wat
happened in the end.

if u all love touching story,
this is a good one.
worth watching.
but do prepare so tissue
u will need it.

by the way...,
su if u are reading my blog.
i would like to wish u a
BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!
*MuAcHzZz*

wish u and vincent
lovely and sweet 4eva...
=>
love you, su..
heee...
*vincent dun mind hor ??
hahahazz...

beside su bday
today is mi and my hubby
29 months anniversary.
just wan let him know...,

"wherever i go
whatever i do
i"ll be happy
if u there beside mi.
HAPPY MONTHNIVERSARY "

** I LOVE U **

2005-08-01T21:08:00.000-07:00

Haizz.…
I failed my practical test today….
=< =< =< =< =< =<
I"m feeling damn low now.
Y she had to fail mi??
Cant she be more lenient??
If she is I could have pass.

The reason she failed mi is bcoz
She said I break the sterility.
I used my hands to take
The gloves aside.
In fact I really really
Seriously dun know tat its not allow.
She didn"t even give mi a chance.
I’m sure tat beside tat mistake
I have done all the steps right.

Cant she just be nicer
Ask mi redo and not fail mi instead.
I’m damn sad...
Nothing but sad and disappointed.

Some of my friends did
the same thing as I did
but the assessor who assess them
either didn"t say anything or
ask them redo again but not fail them.

Haiz…
Maybe its just luck lah.
Who ask mi got a strict assessor
meanwhile OT train too.
Hence her expectation is higher too.

Beside your own skill
I think luck is important too..
Maybe I"m just unlucky.
Blame who….???

2005-07-22T00:00:00.000-07:00

i was sick...
dear came to look for mi
after his work
with my fav fishball soup...
so so so so so happy..
=> => => => =>

i was sick since yesterday.
last night i told him tt i was sick
hopefully he will come acc mi
but he didnt...
i was so sad and disappointed.
the reason he gave is,
so far and i tml got work.

i was totally disappointed.
i"m sick leh,
come all the way here
acc mi also cant arh..

but since he gave mi a surpise
today le.
came all the way here
after work
wit the fishball
i forgive him lah..
hee...

always give mi a surprise
when i least expected it..

** LOVE YOU ALWAYS DEAR **

2005-07-19T12:52:00.000-07:00

A ROMANTIC AND TOUCHING STORY FOR U GUYTO READ...

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene of ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us
A TOUCHING ROMANTIC

seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, You are the kind of man who best draws girls attention. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls. Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn t help doing so.

I moved Dew's hands aside and said, You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I ve got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn t imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I ve got something to tell you, I said.She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly.

She didn t seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

At that night, we didn t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn t want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month s time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn t want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember . You carried me in your arms , she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don t tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.I didn't tell Dew about this.I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, All my dresses have grown fatter. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.

I held her tightly and said, Both you and I didn't notice that our life was lack of such intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.

She looked at me, astonished. Then she touched my forehead. You got no fever, she said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you.

I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed by the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favourite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greetings on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

2005-07-11T14:14:00.000-07:00

hello everyone..
its been a long time
since i come to blog..
coz lazy..
and also my sis la
keep on using the com.
then mi no chance to use.

mi now at sch com lab,
break time.
so came to blog.
furthermore this morning
my friend Alina
ask mi y i nv go blog so long le
then ask mi faster go update
so here i come.
Alina..,
see u got so big face neh.
u ask mi come blog
i come le.
happy..??

today is the first day
of the 2nd week of sch.
still blur blur de.
mi 3rd year le !!!
the word 3rd make mi stress.
coz after this year i will be
out to the society le.
so so so scary sia !!!!
some how i feel that i can"t
be a future gd nurse
coz in sch i have been slacking
and slacking...
nothing but slack.

haizz....
how to pass out as a
future gd staff nurse like tt.
*headache*
not onli that.
mi till now still dun really know
where i wan to go after i graduate.
NKF ????
staff nurse in the ward ????
operating theatre ????
A & E ????
etc etc etc...

honestly i dun really like to
work in hospital.
i dun like shift and the environment there.
i have ever think of not becoming
a nurse after i graduate.
and i got said.
they said:
"if u dun wan to be a nurse y u study nursing"
if ppl study nursing must
he or she be a nurse ??
no rite.

*sigh*
finally year le,
decision should be made by now.
but mi haven"t.
mi still in a maze
looking for my correct wayout.

2005-06-15T01:12:00.000-07:00

today i"m a early bird.
i woke up at 7.10 am.
hee...
coz i need to go see dentist
at woodlands polyclinic
tt"s why i woke up so early.

actually dun feel like going one,
tired wan to sleep,
but got scolded by my dear
who gave mi a morning call
this morning,
bo bian so i went lor..

so i dragged myself out of the bed.
wash up.
changed.
then took a mrt down.

when i reach there it was 8.05 am.
i see 2 ppl onli,
thought my turn will be fast.
never did i know,
when i go take a Q no,
the person tell mi app time
about 1130 am.
i was like HUH !!! 1130 AM !!!!
i have to wait for 3+ hours !!!!!
but bo bian again,
i wait lor..
*haiz..* -_- !!

wait and wait and wait...
finally around 10.30 am
my turn le..
=)

the dentist said my pain
cant confrim wat is the cause now.
too early to say.
i was like, "huh? orh.. like tt arh"
he said maybe due to gum inflammation.
hence he gave mi some
oral hygiene solution
then go back see him in a month time
to see if there is any improvment.
if no then maybe is wisdom tooth.

then i went down to collect my solution.
i thought very fast one,
collect onli ma.
never do i know,
i waited for about an hour for tt solution.
so so so so so long sia...
after tt i went home...

around evening time,
my dear ask if wan meet up
after his work.
i said ok.
he said wait till he tell mi
wat time then come out.
but i wanted to see him sooner.
so at 9.45 pm i went down to
bukit batok to find him le.

he sms mi at around 10.05 pm
and said:
"i meet u at 11+ pm.
coz i meeting my friend.
u stay at home first la.
i finishing chatting call u then u came la"

i was half way there le when he sms mi.
but i bluff him said ya i still at home,
coz dun wan him hurry himself.
and the friend he meeting
is very long never see le de.

so.....
when i reach i bukit batok
i went to the mac
sit down and have a drink.
wait and wait and wait...
finally an hour plus over.
he sms said:
"u can come now"

it was 11.40 pm when we meet up.
from there there is
bus 506 to his house, bedok.
so late le so we faster faster
walked to the bus stop.
"SHIT!!" last bus at 11.30 pm.
we were like "oh no, how??"
train also no more le.
so we decided to wait for the other bus 66.
waited for 10 min still see no sign of bus 66.
we starting to think negatively le.

from there the last hope is bus 543 le.
which go to kallang.
at least nearer to bedok.
take cab from kallang to his house cheaper also.
so we waited.
luckily still have.
but still have to waste money take cab.

the jounery was quite long.
finally reached kallang le.
thought need to waste money on cab,
but no.
when we were crossing the road
we saw the bus which go to his house.
haha..
so lucky sia.
we took the bus and saved our pocket..
=>

2005-06-09T16:38:00.000-07:00

haiz...
today is a super boring day for mi.
morning got wake up by my mum
to go NTUC wit her.
*tired*

we had our breakfast at Sunplaza food court.
then proceed to NTUC.
brought a lots of groceries.
so heavy sia..

after reaching home.
nothing much to do..
so sianz.
so i went to read newspaper and magazine
to kill the time.

actually planning to go cut hair
wit debi one
at around 4-5 pm.
but she just called and tell mi
she at Jurong Pt shopping.
so cut hair push to 6+ pm.
haizz...
whole day at home slack
rotting liao.
so came here to blog
since nothing to do.

my dear starting his attachment
this coming sat.
so funny one, start on sat not mon one.
then somemore he live at Bedok
but his attachment place at Bukit Batok.
that is totally one end to another lor.
his school must be crazy.
send him to so far far far away.
poor dear...
have to travel so so so so so far.

that"s why he coming over to
my house tommorrow night to stay
since my house is nearer.
then he need not wake up that early le.
i really dunno how he going to travel
every morning to work sia.
so far.
waste money.
waste time.

but but....
he got no choice.
haizz...
so ke lian hor...

2005-06-07T08:50:00.000-07:00

just came back from
xin lan house again.
hahazz..
always going over
to disturb her.

she got attachment today
at 9 am,
so i follow her wake up so early.
*Yawn..*
rather sleepy and hungry now.

last night lan help mi
wit my blog.
change the blogskin
to now this current one.
edit the stuff inside,
change the colour, font, wordings all.
so nice of her.
THANKS LAN !!!!

we did the blog for like around 3 hours.
from 10+ pm to 1.05 am.
in between
a lots of funny things happened.

lan actually planned
to sleep before 11.30 pm one,
but coz of me
she slept late again.
heeezz...
so sorry...
but nvm la hor,
zhu ren wei kui le zhi ben.
rite..
i help u dye your hair,
u help mi wit my blog.
hahahz...
fair fair.

so so so so hungry,
i think i going opp kopitiam
to buy breakfast in a while.
later going to meet debi
to go Tampines to trim her eyebrow,
then go work (survery one) at Expo.
then after work,
going my dear workplace
which is at Parkway
to meet him...
cant wait to see him...
heezz...

2005-05-30T23:38:00.000-07:00

this morning i met debi for a job interview at Fuji Xerox.
she intro mi one.
mi so blur lei..
i woke up at 8.50 am thought late le,
coz i thought meeting her at 9 am at the sembawang mrt station mah.
so i just brush my teeth wash my face have a quick shower then rush out le.
i ran to the mrt station.
reached the station at around 9.12 am.
i see no her so i sms her ask where she is.
then she tell mi she about to leave the house now.
i was like huh??
now then leave i thought meeting at 9 am??
then she said no,
meeting at 9.30 am lah.
i was like, really...????
hahazz..
me so blur rite.
hahahz.. blur sotong.

then we went down to the Fuji Xerox.
when we went in all of them are guy onli mi and debi are gal.
they ask us for our names.
but they spelled both of our names wrongly.
debi they write as debbi,
and mine they write as evelyn.
the person who write our names said nowadays everyone is very creative about their names. hahahzz..

the job is about doing survery.
pay not bad.
working hour is 2 hours each time.
i feel it is not bad. and we got the job.
tomorrow can start work le but debi cant make it then i also dun wan go alone so we start work on this coming Wed.

after the interview we went to Sentosa.
coz i wan check out on the resort there.
both of us almost get lost there.
hahaz... so funny.
it was so sunny sia.
then we went to the Sentosa food centre to eat which we had a hard time looking for.
the food there very very expensive.

around 2+ pm we went home.
too sunny to contine exploring le.
we reached home at about 4.05 pm.
then we met again at 5 pm for a swim at Yio Chu Kang swimming complex.
i swam 12 laps sia, to and fro.
so happy..
we swim and swim till 7.15 pm then go bath then wait for debi daddy to come fetch us home..

i felt i am so healty today coz got exercise mah.
then at night my sis and her bf came back.
guess wat he buy.
A1 curry puff.
ARGGHH!!!!
thought today can be healtier but no.
sobz..
all my 12 laps go down the drain le.
coz i cant tahan the curry puff.
hee..
so so so so nice...
yummy yummy..
but yummy yummy no more healthy healthy le..
*sigh...*

2005-05-28T15:43:00.000-07:00

last night i was bored and got nothing to do
hence went over to my friend xin lan house to stay,
some block away from my house onli.
lan she got the car advance theroy test
tml early in the morning
so the whole night there studying and
chatting on the phone
while i use her computer.

then suddenly her dad came in
he ask why i never go take car.
i said no money then lan said to his dad:
"u sponser her la".
then he reply u be my goddaughter la.
hahahz..
i said ok ok.
but in the kidding tone la.
but how i wish i can go take a car license now.
haiz...
must wait untill i work first.
now cant afford it.

in the end, we slept at around 3+ am.
she la, dun wan chat wit mi.
said tml she got to wake up early so wan sleep le.
mi got no choice so go sleep too.

then in the morning i woke up wit her at 7.15 am.
her dad drove mi to my house and
send lan off to mrt station.
i went back to sleep then wake up again at 10 am
to meet lan and jia hao for breakfast at sun plaza.
we took a few pic at the food court.

Mi + Jia hao + Lan

= Mi and Lan =

Acting like a bai chi... Hahahz... Somehow i feel i look a bit like a retarded tweety bird.

after breakfast, they came to my house.
lan came to sleep and
jia hao came to repair my computer.
that lan really can sleep sai.
she slept like about 2 hrs+ lei.
at around 4 pm we went off.
lan went home,
jia hao go meet her gf and
i went to meet my dear to go to his cousin house
for a bbq at the Habour Front codo,
Cariddean.
my 2nd time there.
there really is my dream house sai.
it is so so so so so so so danm nice and beauitful.
very high tec too..
the lift serve to ur house one lei.
so cool...

I WANT TO LIVE THERE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-05-25T04:46:00.000-07:00

wow..
just had my result checked.
last night my friend alina told mi
today 5 am the result will come out.
mi worry till cant sleep sia.
then at 1 am my other friend chan
told mi result out le.

i was on the phone
so ask my friend who was talking to mi
to check for mi but
he said e service closed liao.
hai..
so gan chong to know my result
but close.
then he said will open again at 4 am.
then dunno why is too nerous or wat
i woke up at 4.15 am.
woke up by itself one leh.
hahahzz...

so i went to check...
argghh!!!!!!
all passed.
so happy!!!!!!
so came to blog here.
now i can go back and have a nice sleep le.
heez...
mi gan chong spider...
wake up in the middle of the night
just to check my result.
hahahazz....

2005-05-24T07:22:00.000-07:00

today just came back from my dear house.
went over last sunday. i
enjoy alots being wit him.
hee..

yesterday suddenly my friends
ask us to go swimming.
i didnt bring swimming suit there
but wan swim
so i and dear when to the royle sport house
to buy a sport bra.
hahahz..
no choice.
last min thing mah.
so i wear the sport bra and a FBT short
down to swim.
i feel so weird.
everyone was wearing either swimming suit or bikini
but mi wear sport bra and short.
so pai sah sia.
hahahz...

after swimming we went to eat.
mi and my dear wan to eat subway
but the other couple,
my friends,
they wan to eat long john.
so we think where got subway
and long john together one.
lastly decided to go tampines.

after dinner,
we went walking around tampines
finding for my dear spect.
but the spect either too expensive
or not of his like.
around 9+ pm we went home.

11+ pm mi and dear went jogging.
so tired sia.
swim then jog.
but nvm, healthy lifestyle mah.
hee...
really hope that i can
lose some weight man...
jia you!!!

2005-05-20T10:31:00.000-07:00

Halow everyone,
I m back.
Anyone miss mi??
heez…
2 weeks ago,
my keyboard spoilt
so cant come in and blog.
But 3 days ago
I just brought a new one
so now my keyboard ok le.
Can type le.
So here I come to blog again..

This 2 weeks a lot lots of things happened.
Mi and my dear got some problem.
Sometime I just feel that
relationship are such a headache.
But relationship do give u happiness too la.
Argghh!!!!!
Sometime I just feel like giving up.
Its causing mi *pain*.
And this kind of pain is 1000000 times
worse than being skinned alive.
Its really hurt mi deep deep deep deep inside
till I dunno wat to do
but hide in a concer and cry.
Other than crying
I really really dunno wat I can do..

Is me who I cant handle a relationship properly
or is there some other reasons
that causing all these relationship problem.
I m just a simple ger who wan to be loved,
doted
and cared..
Sobzz..

Isnt relationship meant to be
sweet and lovely
but why must there be problem.
Ppl said that as time pass
relationship tends to go down hill.
I feel that it is like
a mathematics graph curve.
At first they rise.
After a while its start to go straight
then it start to curve downwards.
Agree??

2005-05-06T21:05:00.000-07:00

Arghhh!!!!!
exams is finally over!!!!!
so happy..
=>
but this exams i did not try my best.
all the exams i study the day before one.
so scary sia..
scare when i reach the examintion hall ,
mind all blank.
hahahz..
but still ok la,
i feel.
hee...

Today actually thinking of going out
and have a good lunch
after the exam
with jolyn, alina and jenny.
but jenny dun wan,
so in the end we had our lunch
at the school north canteen.
somemore it was raining.

At first mi and jolyn planning to go out
but the rain
made mi dun feel like going anywhere.
we had no idea where to go
hence we went to e-plaza
to check our stuff and VTP.
around 3+ pm we went home...

At evening time i went out for a jog.
got influnce by my dear lor.
so now i am trying to slim down
and be health to match him.
hee..
my dear really really lose a lots of weight
compared to last time.
i think he lose a overall of 16kg????
see he so successful so fit
and so hardsome now..
i think i better buck up
in case he got snatch away by others.
hee..
or maybe sick of seeing mi this fat gf.
I MUST JIA YOU!!!!!

+ ...My Charming Hubby... +

2005-05-01T00:07:00.000-07:00

today went to sentosa with my mum,
ah ma,
2 aunties,
and 3 cousins.
we reach Palawan beach at arond 3+ pm.
but only mi and my 3 cousins stay at the beach,
the adults went to find food.
we play in the sea,
swim to the float,
so fun.
till 6 pm the adults came to find us.

the toilet there were under construction
so there is only the tempary toilet.
somemore so small,
so smelly
and only have 2 cubical.
so pathetic sia.
so mi and my cousin wallk further down
to the other toilet which is bigger.
but there also so many many ppl.
we got no choice
have to bath at the children section.
those kind open one.
hahahz..
but of course wit our clothes on la.
dun think y y.
hahahz...
after that we stand one concern
use towel block one another to change.
hahahz...
so funny and pathetic.
some even just change like that,
so daring.

after that we went to hougang
to have the Ponggol nasi lemak.
quite nice.
especially the chicken wing.
i think i can eat 3-4.
hahahz.
but fattening so i ate 1 only.
after dinner we took bus 136 to AMK
then took mrt back home.
with that
1 day has gone..
so fast.
i think i should start perparing
for my wed bio paper le.
many many many thing to study for bio...
headache!!!!!!!!!!

2005-04-30T00:32:00.000-07:00

today, mi wif my ah ma aunties they all went to Jumbo Seafood restaurant at Serangoon Garden for dinner. dun really feel like going at first one. but heard got lobster so i go la, hee.. but so sad when we reach there at 8+ pm they said no more lobster le, all sold out le. sobzzz.... i go coz of the lobster now they tell mi no more. so sad sia, no lobster to eat. but lucky still got crabs, better than nothing la.

the dinner was nice. but dunno if it is really nice in the sense of the chef's cooking or coz we are simply too hungry. hahahz... that dinner coz us $178 sia. but nice and worthy the money.... but too bad no lobster.... or else it will be better. hee...

k la, going to do some packing now, coz tml going sentosa wif my mum, ah ma, aunties, cousins they all.. hope i dun get sunburn.

2005-04-29T02:56:00.000-07:00

today..
the paper is ok ok la.
not that bad
but still dun know can pass anot.
haiz...
today after the paper actually
planning to go out wit jolyn alina and jenny de,
but dunno why when deciding
where to go that monment
suddenly dun feel like going le.
in the end jolyn they all went
to coffee bean
wif richard yelly and shasha.
and i went home.

in the evening,
mi and my cousin michelle
went causeway point shopping.
at first planning to go IMM
then go causeway point
then if got time go northpoint too one.
hahaz...
but in the end
we were stuck
in the causeway point mentro
for hours.
coz got sale
and too many nice clothing le.
all we want to try.
so here look look there look look,
here try try there try try,
till 9+ pm.
and we both end up buying
the same skirt and shirt.
hahahz...

reaching 10 pm,
dear suddenly called
and ask mi out to catch a movie.
i said ok so i went home
after buying our clothing.
i went hm pack my thing
and went out to meet him at Cine.
we watch S dairy.
boring show sia.
not very nice,
waste money.
after the movie i went over to dear home....

if u all thinking of watching S dairy,
do consider again.
not really a nice show to catch...

2005-04-28T00:28:00.000-07:00

haizz... tommorrow first paper le. untill now i still havent even study till half the book. die le la. really no mood to study, how..???!! look at the book i cant get anything in lei so came to use computer. haiz... =<>

2005-04-26T22:54:00.000-07:00

mmm... today i feel so healthy sia. today i went exercising. i went jogging wif my sister in the evening around 6 pm. we jogged about 25 min then we went climbing up the stairs (15 story tall). we climb all the way up and down 2 times. actually we thinking of climbing 5 times but i really cant tahan so nv. haiz.. all my fault, no stamina, drag her down. she even slow down her pace to wait for mi when jogging. so good of her. LOVE YOU TING..!!!! *Muachz* hee...

i said i wan to lose weight she said she wan to be my exercise manager. hahahzzz... so cute. but this exercise manager havent even exercise buy tibit there eating le then jog. wat kind of exercise manager is tt. hahahz. still buy 2 pkt sia. hee.. got tem by her i brought 1 pkt too.

after the jogging and climbing we went home to have dinner and wait for our cousin to call us. coz before that we agreed to play badminton at around 7+ pm. so finally she called, we went down to play. mi, my sister, my cousin (michelle) and future cousin-in-law (jiahui).

we had a fun time playing and exercising at the same time. we played till 8.50 pm. coz i wan go back watch 9 o'clock channel 8 show. today i really really sweated like hell.. so shiok. long time nv sweat like tt le...

= My Dear Sis Who Went Jogging With Me =
*LOVE YOU*

2005-04-23T05:31:00.000-07:00

today i went to xin lan's sister bday chalet at changi Aloha. so far sia. lucky my dear fetch mi there or else i sure lost my way one lor. actually i was suposed to meet lan they all at 3+ pm to go together one but i got something on so i told them i go myself. then i sms her again i will reach at 7+ pm. but because i went to have dinner wit my dear and his mum so i reach there at 10+ pm. hahaahz.. sorry lan. at that time debbie went back le. thought can see her coz long time no see le.

at the chalet we played cards. the loser had to drink the drink the winner make. there's tiger beer, rose syrup, 100 plus, coke, longan syrup. hahahz so fun. coz most of the time i win. so got to mix the drink for them. so fun sia.. we played till like about 4 am. sc cant tahan le, the first one to go to slp. i was hungry so the 4 of us, mi, lan, wenbin and lan's cousin went out to bbq. till 5 am, my dear came to fetch mi back. so tired... another 2 hours the sun is coming out le... *yawn*

<<= Lan and mi at changi chalet =>>

2005-04-22T18:05:00.000-07:00

hee.. today i'm so so so so so so happy. my dear come and fetch mi from sch. i have been asking him why he nv come fetch mi and today he came le. actually before that i know he maybe will be coming le so was a bit surprised and shocked onli. hahahz..

he took a bus from bedok to amk but dunno how to get to nyp. hahahz.. so cute. wan come find mi but dunno the way..

2005-04-20T20:01:00.000-07:00

die le!! die le!! today the phyco test very tricky.. trick mi here and there.. trick mi all over. how..!!?? die le la.. sobzz.. ='< somemore i never finish study. sobzz.. why so hard.. haiz.. hopefully can pass.

today after school i went to West Mall to change my contact lens. but they dun have the stock. hai.., have to go back during May to take again, so far sia. this is my 2nd time there to change. the 1st time they ask mi hold on to the old one 1st, they let mi try a new pair if ok then come back change. today i go back but no stock. must wait, so i will be going there the 3rd time.

nothing much happened today. i think i shall end here la... bye..

2005-04-20T05:03:00.000-07:00

just now i went k box with michelle, jiahui, yong hui and junming. but before that, actually i decided for quite awhile go or not go, coz i got test the next day. in the end i still go. reason 1: i wan go k songs quite long le. reason 2: junming belated bday celebration. reason 3: junming they all going start work soon, hence less time to meet up again le. hahaz.. power hor mi, got test dun wan study go sing songs.

mi and mic brought a cake for junming. we put the cake wif the staff there first and then in the mid of our singing we give him a surprise. i think he got a shock too, why suddenly got cake and birthday song. we sang birthday song for him and took a few photos wif the bday boi.

= A Very Fruitty Friut Cake =

+ Photo Wif The Bday Boi +

we sang until 11.55pm. then we start walking to the mrt station to catch the train. mi, jiahui and mic still got train back to sembawang but as for yonghui and junming not so lucky le. they miss ur last train home. both of them live near jurong but the train ends at kanji. luckily they went to check out on the bus, junming manage to catch a bus home but poor yonghui no more bus and train home. he had no choice but take the train wif us and alight at admirty and take a cab home.

when mi mic and jiahui alight at sbw, the 3 of us were hungry so we went to the 7-11 to buy some cup moddles and bread to eat. we went to my house downstair to eat. after finish eating we went back home, its was around 12.25 am. i thought i will study but in the end use com till now. that's bad. how am i going to pass my test ltr on. shit..!!!!! i think i better go getsome slp now. wake up in the morning to study. nitez..

2005-04-12T21:30:00.000-07:00

I’m so happy.. My individual project is finally over le. Because of this 10 min project I spent like 8 hrs last night to do. I slept at 5am this morning, so tired… Then I woke up at 8+ am to practice my presentation. So worry that I will lose my words during the presentation. This is my first time presenting all alone in front of the class in NYP. All along is group work but this time individual so a bit not too used to it. So scary and nervous. I’m the second last to present, those who were in front of me presented so well, that add on to my stress level sia. All of they are so great and had their points clearly explained. When it was my turn, my heart pumps faster and faster, my hands turn cold and it was trembling none stop. Even my voice was trembling too.. But halfway through, slowly slowly it was not so bad, not that nervous le. Coz my fellow classmates were quite cooperative wif me.

At first, to stand in front of the class for 10 min to me seemed to be a very long presentation. But when presenting then I realized that 10 min passed rather faster. How I wish I have more time. But after all, it was not too bad. At least I had tried my best le…

2005-04-09T23:49:00.000-07:00

Toady, I went to IMH (institute of mental health), in short is Woodbridge, to be a volunteer there. I went with Jolyn and Alina. Hafiz actually planning to come along one, but he was not feeling well. We reached IMH at around 2.30pm, the meeting time was 2.45pm. We thought we were early, but end up losing our way in IMH. We couldnt find the meeting place. Hahah… in the end the person in charge called us and came down to fetch us. It was 3.15pm that we got to the place that we are supposed to meet. Haha.. so funny. We walk round and round the hospital looking for the meeting place like an idiot.

At first I was quite worried how the patient there is. After meeting them, I feel that they were still ok. But honestly, I still feel a bit uncomfortable there. I was rather scared too. We went to ward 44. They were separated into 44A and 44B. 44A the patient there is more stable one while 44B is not so stable one. We were at 44A. Even before we went in, there were some crowding around the door waiting for us le. When we went in they were very friendly, got one even stand at the door and shake hands wit all of us. So cute..

When I went in the room, got one patient approach mi to play dum wif him. He is really very very smart sia. We play 10 rounds, he won 8 times and 2 times draw.. Power sia. Dun see they mentally not too well, but some are quite talented one neh. But this uncle weird weird one, he keeps on grapping my arm. Then got this uncle, he talk to my friend Jolyn about pre martial sex. Still tell her that he had sex wif an underage girl and said how shiok it was wif some funny expression. If I was her, I dun know how I will react sia.

There is this uncle, he cant hear clearly. Hence he communicates via writing. Jolyn went over to chat wif him. His Chinese is very good but he dun talk, he was rather quiet. He looks lonely. So poor thing..

We were there till 5+ pm. When we were about to leave some of them ask when are we coming again to play and chat wif them. Overall its still ok, they are quite friendly. I had a fun time there playing and chatting wif them…

2005-04-08T17:44:00.000-07:00

Finally.., today is the last day of attachment. These 2 weeks of attachment I learn quite a lots of things. E.g: know how to make milk, how to feed the baby, communicate with the children and baby and know wat are the more common illness among children. The children there very poor thing. All of them are down with some illness, need ppl to take care of them, show love, care and concern.

Yesterday, I got this new admission. A twin brother, 7 wks only, mixed blood. Their daddy is a Caucasian and their mummy a Chinese. Damn cute and beautiful sia. Their daddy very charming too. Hee.. But they dun really look alike. The elder brother look more like mother, more to an Asian baby while the younger brother look more like the father, more to a Caucasian. They are so loveable how I wish I can bring them home. One day also happy..

I got this boy, his cognitive level is a bit low. He is a bit diff from the other kids, tend to be slower than others. His parent too.. Hence he needs more care from us nurses. This boy when he is sick he is quite quiet, tend to cry easily, dun wan to talk to ppl. But when he recovers, he is a very mischievous boy. Today he scratched me, I was rather angry, wanted to scold him. But his parent and ah ma there so I never. So angry.. Lucky he discharged le.

Then I got this very sad case, a girl who got a brain tumor. Her tumor is pressing on her brain nerves all, making her cant control herself, cant do anything but lie still in bed. She is also not too sure wat is going on around her. She used to be a ‘A’ student but now… so ke lian hor. Haiz.. wat a pity. Some of us see her feel like crying coz there is nothing we can do expect makes her feel comfortable. It must have been tough for her and her parent. Got a few times I saw her mum weeping away..

Beside all these, I also make a lots of new friends, the accelerated student. All of them are very friendly and nice. Got one he is of the same age as my dad. The oldest friend I ever had. Haha.. He is 42 years old with 2 kids. He always like to bully me one. Call me golden lion coz of my hair colour, I said this he said that, no matter wat I do he sure to have got some comment de. Sickening uncle sia. Opps.. =X hee.. j/k.

This 2 weeks of attachment in KKH (Ward 55) I really enjoyed myself. The only thing I cant bear to part is the twin brother. Hee.. But lucky I took a photo with one of the brother le. If miss them still can take the photo out to see. Clever hor.. ^_^

2005-04-04T10:10:00.000-07:00

Last sat (2nd April) is my future cousin in law, jiahui's birthday. Her gf who is my cousin, Michelle, got him a chalet. So i went to the chalet to help out. That afternoon i went over to my cousin house to help her with some bbq stuff. At around 3+, jiahui's uncle came to fetch us down to the chalet. When we reached downtown east then we realised that we forget to buy otah and satay. Haha.. so forgetful sia.. Lucky jiahui uncle agreed to help us go back and buy. Haha.., have to go all the way back to sembawang again.

Their room no is actually 1925 at level 2 one but dun know why the person change to 1904 which is at level 1. Like that also better la, more convenience. And the no 1904 turn out to be the conslolation prize. Hai.., i never buy. So sad. 2 person win, jiahui and one of his friend. Only the 2 of them buy, so lucky.

The bbq went very smooth. I think got about 60+ 70 ppl come. Really crowded. And only at around 11+ the crowd start to lessen. At night only got 8 of us staying overnight there. Michelle. Jiahui, Junming, Yonghui, Zhiwei, Alan, me and Michelle's bro who is sleeping soundly thur out the whole night. The whole night we play games. The loser have to drink the water we pour. In the end Michelle and Junming they drank the most. I think they have drink about 1 litre+. haha.. Nv see their face, really funny sia, trying to get all the water down.

5+ am in the morning we really cant tahan le, we decided to have a short slp. We all went to bed. Alan slept the fastest. Not only that, he still snor. Somemore the snor is getting louder and louder each time, giving us some problem to get some sleep. The next day we woke up at 9+ and check out at 10+. Before we left, we headed to BK to have our breakfast. All of us barely get to slp, but still they suggest to go out in the noon. I'm ok wit it. So after we put down our thing at home, have a short rest, then we meet up again. But only got me, michelle, jiahui and zhiwei.

We went to orchard to watch Spanlish. The show start at 9.25pm, that time was only 4+ so we went walking around. I went to heeren to buy shoes which i have been wanting to buy for quite long le, but out of stock. I changed to the new shoes on the spot. Hee.. Michelle actually also wanted to buy a pair of shoes from Charles & Keith one but no new pair le. Only got the one on display on. It was a bit dirty so she nv buy. Dinner time, we went to Ramen 10 to eat. All of us eat untill here sweat there sweat. Haha.. all craving for water coz too spicy le. But it was nice.

After dinner we decided to go bowling at cine, nv we know close down le. sobz... Then we went down to the arcade downstair but nothing much to play there. So we went to the other arcade near the centrepoint one. Hahaha... close down too.. No longer there le.. We were like going crazy le. Walk so long, then nothing here. Finally we sat down at a Mac in centrepoint chatting away, waiting for the show time to reach. At 9 we start walking back to Cine to catch our show. Then we found out that there is one entertainment concer so near to us. There is ps, computer and x-box. Yet we have nv reliased that. Haiz..

The show was not very nice. quite boring. I slept at some of the part, too tired le. After that we went home... I really enjoyed myself.. =>

2005-04-01T23:42:00.000-08:00

Hai.. today rather moody coz my dear he went malaysia this morning. 3 days cant see him, cant hear him, cant sms him.. sobz.. feeling so lonely without him. sobz.. Today is also the last day of attachment for the week. i'm posted to KKH, paediatric ward. there nothing much to do one, rather boring. mostly there to coax the kids. there's a number of cute little baby too.. they are so so so so so so sweet... feel like bring them home sia. haha.. see the kids there also very poor thing. so young only then have to put on the drip la, poke here and there. take blood all. so painful.. see them shout and scream and cry i also sad.. haiz.., hope they recover soon..

2005-03-27T21:41:00.000-08:00

Today early in the morning i was woken up by a sudden call that i had never expected. She is my bf's friend's gf. We know each other but not very close. We had never chat on phone before, so when i recieved her call today i was rather shocked and surpirsed. I dun really know wat is happening between them till she told me. They just break up 1 week ago. This couple they have been together for 5 years plus le. In between they did break and patch a number of times but somehow i feel that this time they are for real. She sound rather rather sad.. She called me again in the afternoon. This time we chat for about 20 min. She asked me for advice and wat she should do. From the conversation i know that she still love him and treasure their relationship. These 5 years they have went thru lots of thick and thin together, i dun think they really bear to let go hor. 5 years leh.. not easy i feel. Reationship mah, there bounds to be ups and downs. Now.., beside listening and consoling her, I really dun know wat else i can do to help her. I just hope that everything will be fine between them.. Waiting for her good news..

2005-03-26T22:45:00.000-08:00

Haiz.. Today i got bluff by a friend. So sad.. We were suppose to meet up for lunch with 2 other friends. But while i was about to step out of the house he called. He said: "How about we meet up some other day" Argghh!!! I was rather angry. If dun wan to go said earlier mah, why last min den tell mi. Still thinking that today i have something to do le. End up staying at home again. Coz he suddenly cancel the plan. Last night i was still thinking maybe after the lunch we can go catch a movie or maybe go play bowling. Never did i know, it will turn out ilke that. Destory my plan sia. Yesterday, i ask him confirm anot. He still said yes, comfirm confirm. Haiz.., bluff mi. Nothing to do then i decided to do some research for my project. At around 6 plus, i went out with my ah ma, aunts and cousins to have dinner. On our way back, we saw this fat lady, she wear till very sexy. Here show a bit there show a bit. But wat we can see is all fats. Then my aunt ask me and my cousin, is this a trend now, show out all the fats u have. We all brust into laughters. I know its bad to laugh at ppl, but the way she wear make us cant help laughing away..

2005-03-25T02:57:00.000-08:00

Today after school I went with Alina, Jolyn and Jenny to Cafe Cartel for dinner. Actually at first we were thinking of catching a movie, The Eye 10. But heard from others that The Eye 10 was not very nice plus mi also have no mood to watch at that time and Alina dun dare to watch, so we never watch it in the end. And i suggested Cartel since they have never been there before.. Alina was relectant to join us at first but in the end got persuaded by us. Haha.. Jolyn even called her mum to let Alina join us for dinner. Funny sia.. We ordered the Crispy Cobo meal for 3 ppl... Got fish cutlets, chicken cutlets, potato wedges, prawn fritters, chicken wings, vegetables... It was really filling for the 4 of us... Beside that, we also shared a plate of Carbonara. Out of the 4 of us, i think Jolyn enjoyed the food the most. She loved the Carbonara a lots lots lots.. Right, Jo??? She even said that she feel like flying to the heaven when she eat it. Haha.. Next time we go again la.. Each of us order one plate of Carbonara ourself. Eat till ur stomach explode also can.. And not forgetting the nice nice bread too. But Jolyn, next time u go, remember to cut the bread into smaller pieces ya, easier to eat. Haha..

2005-03-22T18:44:00.000-08:00

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2005-03-20T18:17:00.000-08:00

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2005-03-18T04:05:00.000-08:00

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2005-03-16T01:52:00.000-08:00

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